A Piece Of You Within Me

Millions of thoughts have come and gone, and the only thing I know, is that there are ashes where you once stood. How many times since the moment I witnessed your last breath, did I wonder, just how lonely you must have been in the world. Just how lost you had become within the vices that finally pulled you down. The ones that stole you away from dancing with your little girl. Did I do all I could, did I make you proud during the twilight hour? And when you looked upon my picture, was there pride deep inside? And what of all the stories you promised? All the things you said you wanted me to know. How many times, did you see me? Hear me? The things you questioned about. When I’d go on an adventure of my own. At what point would I find who I am. And what of love, my own family. For so long I thought I’d fall in love with someone who also believed in heroes, knights, and how chivalry would always be the right thing. I miss such things. But all I’ve thought about is how much I carry so much of you in me. And who will walk me down the aisle, when my time comes to dance with a gentleman, my next leading man. All these things in this life, I won’t show you. Such an unfair realization and reality.